I am really attracted to women of my own background but don't want to date them due to a grudge, solution?

You have to remind yourself, that not ALL indian women are horrible to their boyfriends / partners. There will always be unpleasant people no matter of what race. You just have to find someone you connect with that you'll like. For now, you just have to keep reminding yourself that you will find an Indian woman you are attracted to and she treats you right. If you don't think this will work you could try dating girls from other cultures and see if that works out for you.